Christ almighty! Great Lucifer’s beard! (and other expressions of shock and awe)…
Okay. I’ll start again.
Did you ever wake up and decide “I’m going to do the wrong thing today” or “Fuck it. Think I might embrace my demons and do some evil”? If you haven’t, I suggest that you haven’t led a full and complete life. There’s a lot of wrong and evil things in this world, yet few would admit they’ve ever been the perpetrators of such. Actually, even if you consciously decide to do the wrong thing, for you, at that very moment, it is the right thing. I contend that it’s impossible to consciously do wrong. If you choose to act with hate, aggression or violence, you believe it is the right course of action even if foresight or hindsight tells you differently. Hindsight leads us to the conclusion that certain actions we undertake have been mistakes. Foresight influences us to not make those mistakes. However, in the moment when we raise a fist in anger, we have rationalised this action as the correct course of action. Even when we are conscious that what we are doing is wrong, it is only wrong by whatever standards we base our ethics on, and perhaps in that moment, we think, know or just feel that it is right for us to disregard our ethical standards.
Still with me? Strange concept but let’s get philosophical and existential for a while. Challenge ourselves and continue to think critically.
Moving on… I express now, for your consideration, a part of my existential crisis that has plagued me since I was a child. It begins with my Catholic upbringing and my eternal desire to do what is right which came into conflict with the hormones that began to influence me during puberty. Church was boring and was easy to reject on various grounds that most Catholics don’t need an elaborate explanation for. The fear of eternal hellfire had left its’ mark on me however and I always tried my hardest to follow the teachings of the biblical Christ. In fact, by year 8, I would have read most of the first 5 books of the bible, the 4 gospels of the New Testament and, of course, Revelations. So without knowing it, I’d become more of a reformist Christian and far less a Catholic. By 20 I had begun to despise anyone who pushed their faith on others and kept my love and respect for the biblical version of Jesus close to my heart and would have been embarrassed to admit it to most, for at this point in my life I had become surrounded by people who would be considered “sinners” and I guess I had my share of sins too. I justified this cognitive dissonance by the fact that Jesus spent much more time with the sinners than he did with the pious – that’s where he did his work, and I was still attempting to follow his example, just like my Grandmother taught me. Then, in my mid-twenties, after feeling like I had strayed way too far from what was good and right and wholesome and Christ-like, I was walking down the street feeling disappointed with myself when it struck me; How can I know what the right thing to do is if I never do what is wrong. Perhaps this was just another way of justifying any wicked deed I’d performed or feeling I’d had but I felt the touch of the gods and gave myself license to do whatever the bloody hell I felt like. I felt like the right thing to do was to do wrong basically.
Suddenly, there was no pressure to do what was right and conveniently I realised I had no intention to do wrong by others. Inconveniently, however, I had no problem with doing wrong by myself – something I still have issues with to this day. At around 20 I had met a man, a good man, who was a proud Satanist. I always felt he professed to be Satanic because he was into heavy metal and that was just the cool thing to say and do in his crowd but over many years of friendship I learnt that it was more than just lip-service. It was hard to comprehend for many years because the man in question is a man of strong moral fibre and with great ethical standards… often a better example of Christ than most Christians I knew. It was confusing for me but it never tempted me away from my faith in Jesus. What led me away from my faith in the Jesus Christ that is described in the King James bible, is a story too complicated to tell here and not entirely relevant but it can be summarised thus; In my late 20’s I started using the internet for something other than downloading entertainment and watching porn. I began researching my faith. Learning about the church, studying the politics of the time of Christ and really taking a critical view of politics and religion, which I learnt that nowhere in history has there been one without the other. The Jesus I came to know through historical analysis was a rebel and a militant… this was a game-changer.
Being a semantical bastard, I also learnt that Jesus, Christ, Satan and Lucifer are all merely titles and not names. To break it down; Jesus can be defined as “The Saviour”, Christ is “The Anointed One”, Satan means “The Adversary” and Lucifer – “The Light Bearer”. Now really think about these meanings and how politics and propaganda can twist them when they are personified. There is a whole theological discussion to be had here but it’s not the point of this essay. The point of the essay is to address necessary evil… I believe in a creative intelligence that has put in place a story we call evolution. It is through “Adversity” which we grow… We face a problem, we solve it and we increase our intelligence or strength through the new found skill needed to overcome the “Adversary” or Satan for those who insist on personifying a theological concept. Thus “God” places Satan in charge of the material realm to create hurdles for us to jump, basically. So in a sense the ruler of the material realm is Satan and the material realm is what we might call evil. But the world is no more evil than a mouse’s perception of a cat. The “Saviour” is merely the part of life that relieves us from needing to face “The Adversary”. I guess what I am saying is that we can choose not to face challenges and there is no failure in not gaining the strength or intelligence awarded to those who overcome adversity… We can rest in the loving arms of Jesus and be saved from the pain of navigating the evils of the world. The “Anointed or Chosen One” is a state of being in the favour of “God” or “the Creative Intelligence” that set our tale of evolution in motion. And I suggest that to reach this state is to overcome much adversity. Again, to personify what I’m saying here is; “defeat Satan and become Christ”. But how does one overcome adversity? My suggestion is: through knowledge. We’ve all heard the expression ‘to shed some light on the problem’. Light is equated with solutions. When we have a realisation (the act of accepting an idea to be REAL) we may be said to have ‘seen the light’. And to bring it all full circle; who is the bearer of light? Lucifer! So to summarize: it is through Lucifer we have the power to overcome Satan and become the Christ, or if we choose to avoid Satan we can always be redeemed by Jesus.
This is my consolidation of theology and evolution. I think they’re all just words and stories, expressing a philosophy in code that explains spiritual evolution. Survival of the fittest – on a spiritual/metaphysical level. Or perhaps an encoded and personified story of the evolution of the entire universe. Or both the material world and the ethereal realm are one in the same – overcoming matter is to see the great beyond.
Peace and Be Well.